Life is full of so many ups and downs. SO many. However, sometimes you have to think about the good things and be grateful for them.
Good things that have happened lately:
1. I graduated and had such a great graduation day.
2. My little niece Annabelle was born last night and I am going up north to visit her this Friday. This means not only will I enjoy the beautiful surroundings of my parents' house, I will also get to cuddle a little baby which is one of my favourite things in the world. Especially when that baby is my niece and part of my family.
3. I had a lovely weekend catching up with my two best friends and re-visited the greatness of 'The Hangover'. I also had the most incredible Welsh Rarebit sandwich with poached eggs and bacon. Probably the best breakfast I've ever tasted. I highly recommend.
4. I had a casting workshop and got a new job, actually earning money by doing something creative
5. I have given up Facebook, which feels wonderful. I seriously feel liberated from all its evils.
6. I feel really content being single right now. I have had many times when I have felt sad about this, usually after I watch a romantic film with a Mr Darcy-type character. But I was spending quiet time with God the other day and suddenly felt the most incredible sense of happiness that I actually started laughing. I just felt like everything in my life was good and that I was actuallyhappy being single. Despite some temptations this year, I'm not settling for anything less than a guy who loves Jesus with all his heart because that is the only way he can truly love me with all his heart. If he doesn't show up, I'm actually happy to be just me, myself and I.
7. Even though so many things in life are up in the air right now-job, house (I need to find a new place in a month or so), I am so grateful I can have someone to hold onto. I was talking to my friend the other day about how she is never content with anything in her life and it made me think how we are constantly striving for more because it is built within us. If God has set eternity in the hearts of men, no wonder we reach for that in so many ways. The tragedy is that it is possible to be content deep inside, but so many people give up on this and numb their pain with food, sex, power, money. Even when I went through a brief period of depression, I still felt like there was something more than this, something better. I felt a deeper peace. Deep down I believe this is all temporary and that there are more important things than my job, social life or where I live. I can't imagine what it's like to live without this and when I compare myself to others in this way, I see even more clearly that to live God's way is actually the most flourishing way to live. Even when life is crap, there is something deep down beneath it all that makes everything ok. The deep magic, I guess. Today, I am grateful for this because that is why I have kept going and why I follow God even when it seems like the last thing I want to do.
